I remember you

Dinil I remember you , an impulsive , restive and modest you. I remember it was in the evening I received many calls from my friends, was quite astonished to get calls so many from all. Due curiosity I picked a call and news which awaited to lash out was your suicide. wholly languished I fixed the grip on my table. Clutching the water bottle I palliated the sudden shock andmultitudinous thoughts crossed my mind seeking the reason of this act, which is lurked and yet unknown to me other than some assumptions. I was conducting a training program in trivandrum unusually , it is now 8 months past since you left us. don't know how many of your friends do think of you nowadays. A guy who was quite restive and impulsive in deeds. yet tough for me to say that we shared a wonderful comradeship, you were not my bosom friend, but got introduced to me by a common friend of us Nisha. Wasn't it a folly my friend? Again i guess you were compelled by the situation or it demanded for this?..was that situation unavoidable? or was it written , lurked in your destiny ? I recollect my phone rang in the late night by 11 pm , seeing your name flashing..ahhhmm i picked up ..i dint listen to your Qs " did i disturb u? ur sleep?" but u have had actually. I asked you whats the matter...reply was so simple.." Im in Love" thats so wonderful man..my reply had a pinch of pleasure in it..and i continued ..since i was indeed curious to know with whom..and it really made me so happy when you said she is Nisha, divorcee and a mother . Talking on Nisha she was my good friend and a nice colleague..a girl who picked the most melancholy rhythms for her life always..a short lived married life of 3 months and nondrying pool of tears. I salute you Dinil for your Love. That call given by you in the night was not a nuisance..though felt when it rang , but it left a nice smile on my face when i slipped into a deep sleep. But Dinil fences are created everywhere , for it was an adventure by you. I did support it but did others? I haven't talked to her after that , so don't know what made you do it. But I should be guilty if i had joined them who gossipped and tarnished your relationship. Nisha was sarcastically appraised and got symbolized as the reason behind your suicide. Now Iam upset why the mob create barriers , forbid , channelize relationships based on their acceptance in the society , isn't it too sick? don't we have a personal choice to live the one life happily and opt the way to live it? Dinil why dint you behave with temperance.. I Quote my teachers lines from my slam book "Life is only once be dear in it is grace..."